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BTFI: Beyond the F*&% It.
With the return to school and the inevitable horror of planning week, I had the opportunity to express many FI moments. What I am particularly enjoying about the Zanders' book is how every time I pick it up to read it, it pertains to what is happening in my professional life. I had originally intended to get all of my reading done and finished so that I could focus on the publishing aspect of my final project, but procrastination got in the way. I have a difficult time doing anything when I'm given too much time. In the case of the readings, it worked as I've read each chapter at the most apropos moment.
I am the first to admit that I let planning week get too far under my skin. I do not work well with adults, and find that I'm better suited to conversation with my students than my colleagues. In fact, one of the big sticking points this year is the loss of our block schedule. Personally I don't care whether or not we have traditional or block, and most of the studies on either are told from the adult point of view. Our vote on the topic was last year, and the bitter arguments surrounding that time period still ring fresh in my mind. I had a FI moment, mostly due to my apathy on the subject, and created a BTFI moment when I told my students about the vote and asked them what they preferred. It would directly impact them, so in the absence of a strong feeling on my part, I let them be the deciding factor. I announced this to one of my team members this week, who now is confused as to why the opinion of the students matter so much to me. This is another BTFI moment in the making; it's too early to see how it will play out.
I decided yesterday that I've had my FI moments, now it is time to work towards the BTFI moments. I am going to teach like I'm balancing on one buttock and take those risks again. It seems like every 1st week back with just the staff produces a plethora of FI moments; it's the prospect of BTFI moments that makes me love my job.
"Where is the electric socket for possibility, the access to the energy of transformation?" (Zander, 2000).
Like Zander says, it's where you let yourself go and lean into your work. Where you dare to let go of the edges and participate. This is the kind of teaching that I do in my room. I used to call it "flying by the seat of my pants." Zander refers to it as being on one buttock. I can't plan ahead, and I can't do direct instruction. Both of those bore me, and when forced to do either. I've been placed in a situation where I am forced to accommodate a direct instruction and type "A" planner this year. With Zander's and Buddha's help, I have come up with a solution to my dilemma. It involves both BTFI and the one buttock method. We'll see how it pans out.
Zander, R. S. & Zander, B. (2000). The art of possibility. Boston, MA: Harvard Business School Press
A quote from our textbook that I found interesting can be found on p. 102:
I think that most of us struggle with living in the moment. I too am guilty of that, and I think that we, as westerners, are hardwired at birth with knowledge of the impending doom of the deadline. I wanted to work more on living in the moment this past summer, but I think that I will have to wait for a time when I'm not taking classes that facilitate "deadline thinking."
I've told my students this year that failure is only the first step to success. I'm allowing them to redo everything that they don't do well on this year. It might mean more work for me, or it might not once the fear of failing has been eliminated from the equation.